he's the only boy who'll gonna have my heart on the right time :)
and if destiny breaks this promise, he'll always be a special part of my journey.
NICE ONE! hahaha!
Warning: I'm a CRAP.
don't read me. 'diot. i said don't read!
I told you I am crapped and you didn't believe it.
I'm Jez and craps are all over me right now.
the word crap begun last 25th Dec 1992. I was borned then, &
the doctor gave me the spank of life.
I'm just like any other being,
i cry, i laugh, i pretend, i succeed and most especially i shit.
btw. I'm not an airhead, just full of crap.
if you find my post very shitty and full of craps,
well i can actually congratulate myself for achieving
another crap and woops look! seems like my ass is interested in your lips
THEY SHOULD MEET SOMETIME.
haha!
Everyday is a beginning.Who knows what
surprises are there waiting for us in the future? (like craps at the streets.)
Life is short, so just enjoy every minute of it.(even though it's full of craps)
Lastly,it's Faith is what keeps her going. (even though I'm a crap, GOD loves me.)
09 June 2008 onwards (: my black and white world slowly turns to bright colored. i won't regret the time I've wasted and the worthwhileness. Isowilllove youalways.
lazy to post, lazy to open my eyes, lazy to tell stories. lazy about everything. i'm lazy to live and to stay alive. have you ever felt that?
♥
Today is Saturday, May 30, 2009 11:36 PM
Went to Wild wild wet yesterday, i'll upload photos soon ((;
♥
Today is Friday, May 29, 2009 9:04 AM
Wow. What an emo-shitt I am.(//_x)
went shopping with mama.(then went to clinic and there was a cute guy there, i tried to ignore him haha, i succeed!)
got my report book back, and passed EL-B4, Bio-A1, Chem-B4, Humanities-failed, A Maths-failed, Maths-C6 (i'm a crap when it comes to Maths)
went home and opened my Friendster and became super upset.(secret!)
SMILE
& pretend nothing is happening. just smile and lie about everything. smile and trap the pain inside. smile cos all of those are easy to hide.
-> ariga sa post. she's my idol. tangkilikin ang mga post nya, go! :) -> there's no connection between this and the on i posted below ah.
I felt super random and edited this picture just now. "How I wish life is easier like this" Like, seating on the vast green grassland where the sky is pink with a yellow bright sun, feel the warm as the sunlight touches your skin.Like, having a frappe ice blended that comes with chocolates which you are addicted to.Like, having no people around you but a cute red bug pet who stays quiet and enjoys the calm moment as you do. Like, there's still a butterfly even though you don't have anyone beside you or let's say, not falling inlove. Like, being alone just for one time and seeing the beauty of you yourself being alone. Like, thinking of nothing except yourself and not anybody else. Why did I wrote this? It actually looks a bit bitter, but it's not about bitterness. It's about me who hates the fact that sometimes a person should be alone. Like having nobody except myself. Ok, no further discussion about this.
♥I've got a fear of it
Today is Tuesday, May 26, 2009 12:02 AM
& I don't want you to go.
POSSIBILITIES
Noun
possibilitiespl.
Plural form of possibility. The range of futures that may or may not manifest.
Weird right? And yes, I got a fear of it. Possibilities. Now that I know the possibilities of the future, can I accept it, can I live with it. Or let's say, can I live without you?
♥
Today is Monday, May 25, 2009 1:34 AM
My Day was so screwed up: but still i'm lucky!
Mr. Y caught me for not bringing my bloody thermometer.
He wanted to call my parents coz I lied that I took my temperature already haha!
Mrs. L caught me reading magazine, duh, her class is damn boring.
I was so hungry
Are you picky about who you give your number to?
-- yea yea.
What do you prefer: Pizza Hut or Domino’s?
-- Pizza Hut
Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
-- Nope.
Have you ever gotten a teddy bear from a girlfriend/boyfriend?
-- Errrr.
Are you still talking to the last person you kissed?
-- I dint kissed anyone.
Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?
-- Hawaii with bessy
What is wrong with you right now?
-- everything
Who is the last person that made you laugh?
-- Chen Yi
Are you going through any pain at this time?
-- No.
What did you do this afternoon?
-- Nothing. So bum today. so Tired man!
What are you doing tonight?
-- should probably go to sleep. wanna dream of you.
haiii. something bothers me, I don't want you to go. Not this year, or next year or the other year. Just stay here please. *tears.
♥
Today is Friday, May 22, 2009 2:49 AM
all hail to Kris Allen, mwah. (may mwah pa? haha.)
OMGoodness! I'm loving this guy to core man, after i watched the finals of American Idol. I was like dreaming and thinking about the champ, Kris Allen. He's my new celebrity crush and I'm so falling head over heels in love with him! He knows how to play piano and guitar! What a purrfect creature! How I wish he'll go to Singapore someday! Love yah Kris Allen. Could it be possible for you to be MINE...?
what's up dawg :) I'm talking to myseld: so so so tired since yesterday. we all got our results back and mine is i could say that its the worst results i've ever got in my entire life. i deserve it, yes, you're reading the right words. I DESERVE IT. I deserve it, for being such a stupid person and for being such a bigtime slack, yes, that's what they call people who doesn't do exams and school seriously. And HEY. It's time to change, give me a chance to change. I don't like this. I hate this and I won't ever allow this stupid thing to happen again. Yes, i've failed Maths and Humanities, let's just let it go. Don't look back but learn from it, learn from the past mistakes and change. And for goodness sake, you must change, I must change. This can be worse if I'll continue to slack. Yes. So change, change your bad ass attitude and learn to love yourself cos as they always say, they love you jez.
♥
Today is Tuesday, May 19, 2009 3:35 AM
I MISS HIM
Yes, it's true. I wanted to see him right na na now. Seriously, I miss him. Haha! Just today. I don't know why I suddenly felt sad when I dreamed of him last night! I realized that, I missed him that much. You know what I feel right na na now? I realized how much I missed him. Wondering what he's doing, thinking. Honestly, I wanna see him before I fly to Manila. :( It's been 5 long months and though I thought I would love another guy, I was so wrong, I never fell for the other guy, it was him whom I thinking about, I can't forget him. Five long months was not a hinder, for me not to love him anymore. Yes! It's an extra ordinary thing for that to happen to me. Though he's far, he is still inside my heart and never been replaced. Haha! I'm so happy and I can't believe that in that 5 months, I love him. though yes it's true that I like another guy, it never last long. MY FEELING FOR THAT GUY WAS EVEN UNSURE. Because what's true is that, there's no space for him inside. And I so regret for all that. I love the one who has my heart now, and that will never change. I don't care if i won't have him or his love. I'm happy to see him smile, look at me or smile at me. And that's all I want. Not a relationship, not a boyfriend. Love is not about a relationship, it's about how you respect each other, how you will love the one you love and what makes both of you happy. Love is not all about being together, holding hands, kissing, sharing dreams. It is also about how it makes you feel happy and inspired by just seeing him happy, seeing him laugh and knowing that he is always there, not far. I will love him like this. And I will stay happy and will be happier when he's already here. I know my friends can see the difference in me, whenever he's here. My friends knew it well.
♥
Today is Sunday, May 17, 2009 9:57 PM
IT'S OVER
and yes, exams are over! whether i did my best or not. FORGET IT. It's over. All I wanna do is to treat myself. But I'm finished with that. I've posted some photos me while treating myself with all of my favorite foods. I didn't mind how much calories and fats I could get by eating them. Haha! I just wanna be happy.
it's Sportsfest Part II today. :) Wee! Go Midland Go! All the best, must strike and win againts North and West!
teaching Zage how to draw, Daniel is so cute!!! :D
Today is a fun day with the kids. It's funny how they changed my bad mood! I like it when I hear them laugh and talk. Their little voice calms and cheers me up! How I wish it's always Sunday and I'll be with the kids. Gotta go now, I'll make my way to Superbowl. I posted some photos with them and of them.
♥
Today is Saturday, May 16, 2009 5:41 AM
I wanted to congratulate my Bestfriend! Bianca Bernadette B. Briones for last 11th of May 2009, she had her 1st boyfriend, namely, Loxly. I am super happy for you B-bitprin. I wish you all the best! Lox and Bianx, please last forever ha! :) i love you bestfriend and see you so soon.
ako kea kelan ULIT? :)) haha. Ok na sana ung post ko eh, nagulo ko pa. haha! waiting in vain ba ang drama? lewl. no! i'm so happy with my life! :)) iba pinopoblema ko at di ang lovelife, for goodness sake. wla kong panahon problemahin yan =)) basta loyal ako sa loyal. yuhohown! =)) wait wait, ge na, baba na nga grades ko puro kachurbahan pa sinasbi ko dine. :D
♥
Today is Friday, May 15, 2009 8:13 PM
Yey! Mag tatagalog ako ahh :)) Lapit na ko umalis. YEAH. pero mey memimissh aku. Ang chennes!(haha angarte) wala naman din dito un kea wala rin! Basta uber excited na ko. =)) yeayeahyeah. uhuh uhuh uhuh! shake it beybe! wuhooooo! Yeye!!! I'll be coming back HOME! and never coming back agn! :))
♥
Today is Wednesday, May 13, 2009 10:03 PM
Throat Infection + Colds + Cough + High Fever + No Bio M.Y.E. + Swollen Face
FUNNY SIA! What brand of toilet paper does your family buy? Dunno What is your favorite kitchen utensil? Can Opener ! Funfun. Is your freezer/refrigerator door right next to each other, or on top? top. What color is the chair you're sitting in? i'm at my bed Have you ever worn underwear on your head? when I was a kid. What about over your pants? nope. Have you ever eaten grass? nope. Does your dog eat grass? I've seen him eating grass. Do you yell at it when it eats grass? Nono. Have you ever wondered why the letter Q always has to be followed with u? haha. nope din noticed that bfore. When asked "Wut do yew wanna tlk abouutt", what do you think of first? y do u type lyddat? Is there anything broken around you? none. What's your favorite brand of pencil? Staedler. Eraser? Staedler. Do you like Dunkaroos? I haven't tasted it yet, but it looks awesome? Have you ever yawned and not been able to hear momentarily? Nope, my ear is better after i yawn. Have you ever used the word 'duper' without super in front of it? haha. stupid e. Why do people named Thomas go by the nickname Tom. Why not Thom? LOL! Have you ever used a type writer, and not messed up typing? Nope. Does your dad watch the History Channel everynight? No, he loves watching animals. Mine does. the hell i care :)) Do you fear shutting your head in the car door? LOL. hu doesn't? Do you ever find yourself sitting around making funny faces for no reason? yes. :)) Does anyone ever catch you? yes :)) LOL. Have you played "A Sailor Went to Sea Sea Sea" Lately? I dunno tat game. Did you know the ABC's and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same tune? Yes. If I told you I had a Pokemon mousepad, what would you say? the hell I care ? :)) Gee, thanks, I have a Pokemon mousepad, you jerk! LAME-oh. Have you ever made a project out of wood? oh yesh. Have you ever ridden on a donkey? no. Do you purposely NOT use good punctuation/grammar? not tat often. Have you ever dislike someone you hadn't met in person? Yes, Actors and Actresses. Have you ever see swan dived off of your roof into oncoming traffic? XD Go look in the nearest closet. What's the 3rd clothing article on the left? Cardigans. When you were a kid, did you believe chocolate milk came from brown cows? No. Do you still believe it? No baahs. Have you ever found a dead animal under your house? yes. Have you ever tried to fly past the age of 8? I tried to jump with d umbrella open. Do you watch Disney Channel shows, and then lie about it? no. Has your house ever been infested with some kind of insect? no. Have you ever passed 3 dead squirrles in a row on the road? haha no. Can you laugh like Woody Woodpecker? before. :)
♥
Today is Saturday, May 9, 2009 5:33 AM
I talked to Bianca through YahooMessenger, and it's so funny how worst things could change to best while chatting with her. Credits for making me laugh and smile. IloveyousomuchBestfriend
i'll see you soon, I PROMISE. i'll be good. and yeah Bianca, GOD IS GOOD, HE IS GREAT INDEED. In fact, You love me both.
Sorry God, for all of that. Nobody knows me better but You do. I love you God and please never leave me alone, cos I'm tired of being that. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH :( I'll be good.
WOW! Fantastic, it was good today? it = FreakingLIFE
ihatemyself.
♥
Today is Friday, May 8, 2009 12:41 AM
i'm super unprepared for eveything. I HATE MYSELF to core. this is my first time to be like this. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME! wake up! wake up! wake up! you're not dreaming, you have to achieve something. Can somebody poke me hard? Punch me, and push me down to the floor? I need to wake up.
punyemas na buhay talaga ohh! bwisit! gusto ko ng mamatay!!! Lintik tlgaaaaaa :((
♥Not another day!
Today is Thursday, May 7, 2009 10:45 PM
I hate this week! It's full of sadness and bullshits. And you can't hang on to the people around you?! They are slowly pulling you down until you say with two hands up, "Ok ok I give up!". What the hell is this place? Is this a hell on earth? The most viable solutions for all this thing is to escape or to die. So how am I suppose to that, right? Can I escape? How can I commit suicide, can I bear the pain? This life is so absurd. Life gets no better and it gets WORSE everyday. When you exit from the door of your house, then you'll start to have the same old story, fail, succeed, be happy, agonize. What else? I don't know whom to call. I think God is angry with me. && That's the worst part of it. I've got to change the attitude that will soon kill me. HELP.
This is the most shitty! Absurd and most ridiculous part of my life. I can't concentrate for my MYE and I dunno wth is bothering and lingering in my mind, I'm so stressed and depressed! I want to DIIEEEEEEEE. I don't like to fail and to be titled as the most stupid person in the world. oh God. I feel like crying with bended knees already! What am I suppose to do? I don't have the strength whenever I come home, my body and brain is so drain. So what am I gonna do with this crappy life of mine? Am I gonna survive for the next 3 days or even 2 days? God, I need you now. I want to go back to Philippines already, with my friends and lola there. They are the ones who always cheer me up, the ones who encourage me! What's wrong with the people around me here? They are all busy, busy with their own stressful life. I can't compare Phils and Sing 'cause Philippines is a lot more better! What am i suppose to do? I hate this life. Ups, downs, ups again and downs. Life is driving me more crazy.
How do you want to die?
With a knife stabbed on your chest, Or with a gun aimed at your head?
In an accident, no one to save your life, Or would you like to hang yourself up?
With who do you want to die?
Die alone, by yourself, suicide, Or die with friends, in a group, of war?
..Die at peace, in your old age, by disease, Or die, killed, by another one around?
...As you know, There's too many ways for people to die.
..Sometimes you get to choose,
That is in a condition, where you're determined, despite disease.
..Other times, you just get with the flow,
And live till you die.
♥
Today is Saturday, May 2, 2009 6:33 AM
The sweetest word is your name. And the greatest thing is your love.
All the lonely tears that have escaped my eyes have made me who I am, One to love you more. All the times I felt I've found the one, And all the times I've mourned over a bleeding heart, All the things I've wished I've done, And all the things I wished I hadn't helps me love you with purity and certainty. All the times we fight feels like we're gambling our lives.
I hope we never lose. I love you so much, I love you with all my faults and all my achievements. I love you with all that I am. I love you for who you are. I hope in the quietest of the night when I whisper out to you you know just what to do. You listen to hear my voice echoing how much I love you.
♥Why you?
Today is Friday, May 1, 2009 7:27 AM
No matter how hard I think, how hard i try to forget you. Your voice still lingers in my mind, your voice is my sound of music, your smile is an epitome of perfection and I see paradise in you're eyes. and at night I pray to meet you in my dreams, and whenever that happens how i wish i can sleep forever; cos dreams are better than reality now. Reality has always been the best but it's getting worse whenever you're not around. How can I know if a person is better, if I had known the best before? Why does it have to be you?
:( I miss you and I'll always will.
God, please bless me with a peaceful heart and mind.
